[ Steve, who had just thought Tony was going to sit on his lap like he's buff Santa Claus, is a little surprised, but it's a happy surprise. He's always glad to have his lap full of Tony, no matter in what shape, manner or form.
Even if all their friends are talking about it. Steve pays them no mind, because technically Tony owns the whole tower, so they did in fact, get a room. They got many rooms. Besides, he does not intend to give their pals a show; Rhodey might've seen all of Tony in his tenure as best friend, but Steve is not friends with any of them like that. ]
You said you wanted to climb me.
[ That's all the explanation Tony's getting for why they're in this position. Steve is definitely beaming, because this is clearly a genius solution, and he leans back on his elbows to look up. With all of midtown Manhattan behind him, the best view is still the one he's got facing forward. ]
Is it comfortable?
[ A few of the others decide maybe they should move this game over to the mezzanine area, or just somewhere not in full view of the bar, but Steve attempts to wave them off from doing that. ]
We can-- we'd go upstairs.
[ Then he turns his attention to Tony, reaching up, carding a hand through his hair, thumbing down his beard. ]
We'd go upstairs, right? Please don't get undressed in front of everybody.
Even if all their friends are talking about it. Steve pays them no mind, because technically Tony owns the whole tower, so they did in fact, get a room. They got many rooms. Besides, he does not intend to give their pals a show; Rhodey might've seen all of Tony in his tenure as best friend, but Steve is not friends with any of them like that. ]
You said you wanted to climb me.
[ That's all the explanation Tony's getting for why they're in this position. Steve is definitely beaming, because this is clearly a genius solution, and he leans back on his elbows to look up. With all of midtown Manhattan behind him, the best view is still the one he's got facing forward. ]
Is it comfortable?
[ A few of the others decide maybe they should move this game over to the mezzanine area, or just somewhere not in full view of the bar, but Steve attempts to wave them off from doing that. ]
We can-- we'd go upstairs.
[ Then he turns his attention to Tony, reaching up, carding a hand through his hair, thumbing down his beard. ]
We'd go upstairs, right? Please don't get undressed in front of everybody.
[ He knows that if they did go a little too hard, that their friends wouldn't really hold it against them, because they're in love and most of them had been very encouraging about Steve finding someone, back when he was very very single.
But, even drunk off his ass, he's going to try and be polite and not subject their friends to this show. Or, in the case of the Asgardians, he's also not really trying to get them to ask for an invite, and maybe next time Steve plays, he'll have to drink when someone mentions threesomes. He gives a firm shake of his head. ]
No sharing.
[ He gently paws at Tony, more playfully than sexy, eyes drawing up from his chest to his face. Okay, that might have been a little sexier than he meant it. Same with: ]
Your eyes only.
[ He tries to say that quietly, so that no one else can hear them, but he thinks maybe everyone's watching them. Which, also in efforts to be polite, no one is anymore, having returned to their party and deciding to look away in case Tony and Steve did actually forget anyone else was in the room. In their defense, it's not outside the realm of possibility.
And brushing his hand up Tony's thigh while he pushes himself up with his other arm, and then finds it around Tony's back. ]
How about I carry you?
[ It's not a great idea, considering that Steve was finding it hard to keep balance, but they are perhaps on the far side of drunk to care. ]
But, even drunk off his ass, he's going to try and be polite and not subject their friends to this show. Or, in the case of the Asgardians, he's also not really trying to get them to ask for an invite, and maybe next time Steve plays, he'll have to drink when someone mentions threesomes. He gives a firm shake of his head. ]
No sharing.
[ He gently paws at Tony, more playfully than sexy, eyes drawing up from his chest to his face. Okay, that might have been a little sexier than he meant it. Same with: ]
Your eyes only.
[ He tries to say that quietly, so that no one else can hear them, but he thinks maybe everyone's watching them. Which, also in efforts to be polite, no one is anymore, having returned to their party and deciding to look away in case Tony and Steve did actually forget anyone else was in the room. In their defense, it's not outside the realm of possibility.
And brushing his hand up Tony's thigh while he pushes himself up with his other arm, and then finds it around Tony's back. ]
How about I carry you?
[ It's not a great idea, considering that Steve was finding it hard to keep balance, but they are perhaps on the far side of drunk to care. ]
( it's surprising how far things have come, in more ways than one, and the proverbial foot drop he's waited on for months never quite seems to arrive. for however much they've stumbled over the time passed, nothing really sits ill between them for long, and somehow they've managed to talk through everything properly, despite the hangups they both have over one thing or another. odd how that's worked, particularly knowing who tony is and understanding too that he wouldn't do that for just anyone.
the soldier has difficulty shaking the idea there has to be something thoroughly wrong with him still, between the things in his head he still can't get over and the overwhelming need to make up for his crimes committed as hydra's pet dog. the drive has certainly put him in more difficult situations than he'd like to admit aloud, times even when he'd needed help and had the presence enough to call anyone at all for it. that tony never held it against him, even commiserated in his own way, made bucky feel a little less broken and a little more sure.
after the trial run of bucky sitting pretty in the lab, it's probably not surprising they've finally reached the point of properly going out, especially with all the patience tony has already given, the wide berth by which their entire relationship seems to hover comfortably at and still never quite suffers for. if anything, the space has made things stronger, and bucky isn't even sure if that's simply the measure of how a relationship should be done now, for him, or if it just happened to be what they both needed too.
a date feels so hefty though. there are a lot of expectations with that word, and bucky can't help but feel nervous anyway, regardless of all the times they've already shared meals and spent time together. what if he finally says the wrong thing? does the wrong thing?
god, when did ties start feeling so stifling, though? he's pacing a bit, between the bathroom to check his appearance for the millionth time and peeking out the window of the balcony door. the highly treasured fidget cube that's remained on his person as much as possible doesn't quite fit into the coat pocket and sits lonely on the kitchen counter. he's never quite needed it while spending time in tony's lab, so maybe it'll be okay as long as tony is with him, right? yeah, that's definitely why he's pacing. it's just that tony isn't here yet and not at all because—
he hears the telltale rumble of a sport engine, richer than anything far cheaper, and floats swiftly toward the balcony again, as if he can't already guess and seeing will help his nerves. it really doesn't, especially when tony seems to hover uncertainly near the vehicle and all bucky can do is stare and wonder why. while he's still questioning, the buzz comes in on his intercom, and he's trotting back toward the wall near the front door to answer. this is silly. he's being silly. everything's fine. this is fine.
a swift glance to his watch says tony actually did arrive pretty much on the dot. )
Is that bad? ( the click that comes after, of the mic button switching off, seems to beg a response, but quickly after there's another click as bucky speaks again. ) On my way.
( after he reaches up to brush his hair back again, as if that would help anything other than the gnawing anxiety.
luckily he looks quite polished anyway, wearing a two-piece at all. since he's not expecting much action, he's wearing a thinner set of gloves, mostly out of habit, being anywhere public, but he anticipates tony wouldn't let that interfere with their meal anyway, something to wait on and see. chopsticks aren't particularly easy to use with gloves on, at least.
bucky only realizes he's rushed out the door when he has to slow himself from colliding into tony like a buffoon, stumbling back slightly while offering a sheepish grin. )
Ah— sorry, uh. ( a pause as he takes tony in. the guy really does look good in anything, something he appreciates fondly for a moment as the smile spreads into something far more earnest. ) You look good.
( yeah, like tony wouldn't already know. )
the soldier has difficulty shaking the idea there has to be something thoroughly wrong with him still, between the things in his head he still can't get over and the overwhelming need to make up for his crimes committed as hydra's pet dog. the drive has certainly put him in more difficult situations than he'd like to admit aloud, times even when he'd needed help and had the presence enough to call anyone at all for it. that tony never held it against him, even commiserated in his own way, made bucky feel a little less broken and a little more sure.
after the trial run of bucky sitting pretty in the lab, it's probably not surprising they've finally reached the point of properly going out, especially with all the patience tony has already given, the wide berth by which their entire relationship seems to hover comfortably at and still never quite suffers for. if anything, the space has made things stronger, and bucky isn't even sure if that's simply the measure of how a relationship should be done now, for him, or if it just happened to be what they both needed too.
a date feels so hefty though. there are a lot of expectations with that word, and bucky can't help but feel nervous anyway, regardless of all the times they've already shared meals and spent time together. what if he finally says the wrong thing? does the wrong thing?
god, when did ties start feeling so stifling, though? he's pacing a bit, between the bathroom to check his appearance for the millionth time and peeking out the window of the balcony door. the highly treasured fidget cube that's remained on his person as much as possible doesn't quite fit into the coat pocket and sits lonely on the kitchen counter. he's never quite needed it while spending time in tony's lab, so maybe it'll be okay as long as tony is with him, right? yeah, that's definitely why he's pacing. it's just that tony isn't here yet and not at all because—
he hears the telltale rumble of a sport engine, richer than anything far cheaper, and floats swiftly toward the balcony again, as if he can't already guess and seeing will help his nerves. it really doesn't, especially when tony seems to hover uncertainly near the vehicle and all bucky can do is stare and wonder why. while he's still questioning, the buzz comes in on his intercom, and he's trotting back toward the wall near the front door to answer. this is silly. he's being silly. everything's fine. this is fine.
a swift glance to his watch says tony actually did arrive pretty much on the dot. )
Is that bad? ( the click that comes after, of the mic button switching off, seems to beg a response, but quickly after there's another click as bucky speaks again. ) On my way.
( after he reaches up to brush his hair back again, as if that would help anything other than the gnawing anxiety.
luckily he looks quite polished anyway, wearing a two-piece at all. since he's not expecting much action, he's wearing a thinner set of gloves, mostly out of habit, being anywhere public, but he anticipates tony wouldn't let that interfere with their meal anyway, something to wait on and see. chopsticks aren't particularly easy to use with gloves on, at least.
bucky only realizes he's rushed out the door when he has to slow himself from colliding into tony like a buffoon, stumbling back slightly while offering a sheepish grin. )
Ah— sorry, uh. ( a pause as he takes tony in. the guy really does look good in anything, something he appreciates fondly for a moment as the smile spreads into something far more earnest. ) You look good.
( yeah, like tony wouldn't already know. )
[ Tony is so very cute like this, stumbling around, happy. He imagines that he used to like the feeling of being drunk, or else, he wouldn't have done it so often. So he'd always imagined Tony to be flirtier, to be endlessly friendlier when given a little bit of social lubrication. And maybe it also helps that he was in a good mood to start, and he still is.
But Tony's positively adorable with his big eyes and his sweet drunken laughter. ]
I'll take full responsibility when you wake up tomorrow with a hangover.
[ He takes Tony's hand in his and tries to scurry with him upstairs, the rest of the party having returned to their game without them and seeming not to notice them slipping out. Good, they deserve to have a nice night and a good time, Steve thinks. ]
I wanna keep playing. But with kisses, instead of drinks.
[ He has no idea how that's supposed to work because the kisses are very much mutual, but he also very much enjoys these little playful things they share with each other. It doesn't have to make sense.
Once they get to the bedroom, he does in fact throw Tony on the bed, a little harder than usual, climbing in right after him, over top of him, his kisses artless and clumsy but just as passionate as usual. ]
Never have I ever gotten drunk and snuck out of a party to go have sex before.
But Tony's positively adorable with his big eyes and his sweet drunken laughter. ]
I'll take full responsibility when you wake up tomorrow with a hangover.
[ He takes Tony's hand in his and tries to scurry with him upstairs, the rest of the party having returned to their game without them and seeming not to notice them slipping out. Good, they deserve to have a nice night and a good time, Steve thinks. ]
I wanna keep playing. But with kisses, instead of drinks.
[ He has no idea how that's supposed to work because the kisses are very much mutual, but he also very much enjoys these little playful things they share with each other. It doesn't have to make sense.
Once they get to the bedroom, he does in fact throw Tony on the bed, a little harder than usual, climbing in right after him, over top of him, his kisses artless and clumsy but just as passionate as usual. ]
Never have I ever gotten drunk and snuck out of a party to go have sex before.
[ The phrasing's a bit hard for Steve to wrap his head around, but they're both drunk and it kind of makes sense to his ale-addled brain. ]
You know how I feel about that.
[ He kisses Tony sloppily, because he's unable to keep the smile off his face as they come together. Tony's hands on his cheeks just makes him so very happy in this moment, and he can't help but to grin like a cat who's caught a bird.
When Tony grabs his ass he doesn't know whether to move backwards into the touch or forwards to grind his hips into Tony's, so he tries both in succession and stars dot the back of his eyelids. ]
Never have I ever... been able to get you off my mind.
[ It's a near-constant thing, to think of Tony. He's always thought it was just on par the course with loving Tony Stark: the man never did anything in half-measures so why would this be any different? Why would this be any less than obsessive and all-consuming? Sometimes it's dizzying just to think that they're here together, almost overwhelming in nature. But Steve loves this too, loves feeling this way, and loves knowing that Tony is the same.
He works on Tony's shirt, his movements graceless, definitely pulling a few buttons along the way. ]
Wait, wait, you do this. I'm destroying your shirt.
You know how I feel about that.
[ He kisses Tony sloppily, because he's unable to keep the smile off his face as they come together. Tony's hands on his cheeks just makes him so very happy in this moment, and he can't help but to grin like a cat who's caught a bird.
When Tony grabs his ass he doesn't know whether to move backwards into the touch or forwards to grind his hips into Tony's, so he tries both in succession and stars dot the back of his eyelids. ]
Never have I ever... been able to get you off my mind.
[ It's a near-constant thing, to think of Tony. He's always thought it was just on par the course with loving Tony Stark: the man never did anything in half-measures so why would this be any different? Why would this be any less than obsessive and all-consuming? Sometimes it's dizzying just to think that they're here together, almost overwhelming in nature. But Steve loves this too, loves feeling this way, and loves knowing that Tony is the same.
He works on Tony's shirt, his movements graceless, definitely pulling a few buttons along the way. ]
Wait, wait, you do this. I'm destroying your shirt.
[ Steve has never felt so uncoordinated in his life, but he's trying his best. And when Tony asks that Steve take his shirt off first, he tries to just lift it over his head, but then he gets stuck. So, he gives it a good rip and thinks he'll just sew all these buttons back on tomorrow, except that somehow he's also managed to basically just hulk out of the damn thing.
And, okay, maybe he will try to buy a sturdier shirt, for more than $50, some other time.
He barely gets it off and he's already rolling his hips against Tony's, almost as if he'd forgotten that they still are mostly clothed and there's still all this fabric in the way. But he works on that, forgoing the shirt for now and grasping at Tony's belt as he latches lips onto his neck, definitively less discerning with his kisses than he would normally be sober. ]
You're so amazing, Tony.
[ He can't really help how soft he feels in the moment - normally he at least gets a bit of a filter, but while drunk everything is open and honest and apparently steeped in poetry and little games to get to know Tony better. Sort of. It's not like the game gave him any new information, but the thought was there. ]
Can't wait to marry you.
[ He unhelpfully mutters all this into Tony's neck, and further sentiments about his dreams for married life. ]
And do all our taxes together. Make you coffee every morning. 'N take out all your garbage.
And, okay, maybe he will try to buy a sturdier shirt, for more than $50, some other time.
He barely gets it off and he's already rolling his hips against Tony's, almost as if he'd forgotten that they still are mostly clothed and there's still all this fabric in the way. But he works on that, forgoing the shirt for now and grasping at Tony's belt as he latches lips onto his neck, definitively less discerning with his kisses than he would normally be sober. ]
You're so amazing, Tony.
[ He can't really help how soft he feels in the moment - normally he at least gets a bit of a filter, but while drunk everything is open and honest and apparently steeped in poetry and little games to get to know Tony better. Sort of. It's not like the game gave him any new information, but the thought was there. ]
Can't wait to marry you.
[ He unhelpfully mutters all this into Tony's neck, and further sentiments about his dreams for married life. ]
And do all our taxes together. Make you coffee every morning. 'N take out all your garbage.
[ He hopes they're not downstairs waiting for them, because Steve thinks that he and Tony are retiring for the night, that when they're done here, they might need to reserve all their energy to get up and wash off afterwards, and then collapse on top of each other in drunken laughter until they fall asleep.
But right now, his thoughts have completely shut off as Tony grabs his ass, and his hands go to desperately take himself out of his pants, lips clumsy against Tony's as he nearly rips his belt loops off with his belt, and whines into his mouth and his jaw and his cheek. ]
Picnics... Yes.
[ The way that word trails off into a hiss as he thrusts his hips down make it almost sound like he's turned on by picnics; it's very difficult to keep a conversation going while in this state.
He pulls his pants down until they're only around his knees, and tries to kick them off the rest of the way as he puts his hand on Tony's ass and pulls at him until they roll over, until Tony's straddling his waist, which, okay, didn't actually make it easier to take his pants off, but the thought was almost there. ]
Let's go on a vacation. You, and me. And a sunset.
[ He smiles up at Tony, and runs hands down his sides, until he's got both his hands full of asscheek. He gives one a little jostle, and the other one a playful little smack. ]
Need these off.
But right now, his thoughts have completely shut off as Tony grabs his ass, and his hands go to desperately take himself out of his pants, lips clumsy against Tony's as he nearly rips his belt loops off with his belt, and whines into his mouth and his jaw and his cheek. ]
Picnics... Yes.
[ The way that word trails off into a hiss as he thrusts his hips down make it almost sound like he's turned on by picnics; it's very difficult to keep a conversation going while in this state.
He pulls his pants down until they're only around his knees, and tries to kick them off the rest of the way as he puts his hand on Tony's ass and pulls at him until they roll over, until Tony's straddling his waist, which, okay, didn't actually make it easier to take his pants off, but the thought was almost there. ]
Let's go on a vacation. You, and me. And a sunset.
[ He smiles up at Tony, and runs hands down his sides, until he's got both his hands full of asscheek. He gives one a little jostle, and the other one a playful little smack. ]
Need these off.
[ Steve should really be helping Tony get his clothes off, but he's more of a hindrance, and finds himself busy with warm hands on his skin, running up his sides, cupping his chest, flicking a thumb over his nipple. The sensation feels just a little bit different when he's drunk - no worse or better, just different. It's a little bit thrilling. ]
You always wanna give me everything.
[ A total call-out, but he doesn't mean it badly. He smacks Tony on the ass and draws his tongue over his teeth as he's finally freed from his pants, dropping a hand to gently tease his cock. He looks up at Tony with as intense a gaze as he can muster, half-affected by drink and half by lust. ]
I love it. Love that you can't wait to get my hands on you. Love when you always tell me what I want to do to you, like you don't want it just as bad. Like it's never your idea in the first place.
[ The rambling doesn't really get a filter, but that's fine. One of the things he likes about the sex is the vulnerability, the way that he doesn't have to put on the Steve Rogers he shows to everyone else. He just gets to be Tony's fiancé, his beloved, his lover. ]
I need you.
[ He mumbles that into Tony's mouth, feeling all the drunker still off of their shared breaths, fumbling around in their nightstand, getting what he's looking for but also definitely smacking the whole top drawer onto the bedroom floor. ]
--'ll fix that tomorrow.
You always wanna give me everything.
[ A total call-out, but he doesn't mean it badly. He smacks Tony on the ass and draws his tongue over his teeth as he's finally freed from his pants, dropping a hand to gently tease his cock. He looks up at Tony with as intense a gaze as he can muster, half-affected by drink and half by lust. ]
I love it. Love that you can't wait to get my hands on you. Love when you always tell me what I want to do to you, like you don't want it just as bad. Like it's never your idea in the first place.
[ The rambling doesn't really get a filter, but that's fine. One of the things he likes about the sex is the vulnerability, the way that he doesn't have to put on the Steve Rogers he shows to everyone else. He just gets to be Tony's fiancé, his beloved, his lover. ]
I need you.
[ He mumbles that into Tony's mouth, feeling all the drunker still off of their shared breaths, fumbling around in their nightstand, getting what he's looking for but also definitely smacking the whole top drawer onto the bedroom floor. ]
--'ll fix that tomorrow.
[ He loves all the ways that they have sex, that they make love. When it's slow, or when it's fast and hard, it's always intense, it's always exactly what he needs. So the answer's always yes, or at least a resounding sure, he'd like to try, if it's not something that's in his repertoire.
He gets to say that less and less, as time goes on.
And yet, he's not expecting it when Tony nudges his legs apart and just plays with him, pulls moans from him even as he writhes his hips to get just a little more sensation. ]
Yes. Yes, Tony, give it to me. Fuck me.
[ There's not a way to be less crude about this, but he knows Tony gets off on hearing all these vulgar words come out of Steve's mouth. And not only that - all those kicks really help his flexibility, and he spreads his legs in a full split, because he knows Tony likes seeing how very eager Steve is all the time, too.
He pulls Tony in close, sloppy kisses at his jaw, hand holding his hair just a tad veering on a little too hard. ]
How do you want me? Any way you want it, sweetheart, I'm yours.
He gets to say that less and less, as time goes on.
And yet, he's not expecting it when Tony nudges his legs apart and just plays with him, pulls moans from him even as he writhes his hips to get just a little more sensation. ]
Yes. Yes, Tony, give it to me. Fuck me.
[ There's not a way to be less crude about this, but he knows Tony gets off on hearing all these vulgar words come out of Steve's mouth. And not only that - all those kicks really help his flexibility, and he spreads his legs in a full split, because he knows Tony likes seeing how very eager Steve is all the time, too.
He pulls Tony in close, sloppy kisses at his jaw, hand holding his hair just a tad veering on a little too hard. ]
How do you want me? Any way you want it, sweetheart, I'm yours.
[ Tony's always intent on turning Steve's brain into absolute slush, but the drink's already gotten him halfway there, so it doesn't take much to turn him into an absolute mess. He grabs a pillow to muffle his own sound with it as Tony brushes up against him where he's the most sensitive, whines when he withdraws, and his hips try to follow Tony's hand. ]
I like it any way you like it.
[ He says this into the pillow, so most of the words get completely drowned out, so he moves it to the side as he writhes down on Tony's fingers, one hand around his waist and the other one reaching down between his legs to gently work his cock. ]
It was a good night, wasn't it?
[ He's still a little stuck on this idea that they're doing things like getting drunk at parties together, stepping out as a couple. Moving into a house. Soon they'll be married, and putting things on a registry of stuff they don't need and painting swatches of ten different white paints on the walls, doing all the things normal couples do.
He'd never bought into that family dynamic that almost everyone his age seemed to want a part of, that 1950s stuff, because he'd never wanted a wife like that and he's pretty sure Tony would only put on an apron for sex-related reasons. But, still, he carries this fantasy where he brings Tony pancakes in bed, and they host dinner parties, and do the Sunday crossword together. ]
We should do this more.
[ The hand that's at Tony's waist lifts to cup his cheek. Whatever Steve's thinking, it's soft. ]
I like it any way you like it.
[ He says this into the pillow, so most of the words get completely drowned out, so he moves it to the side as he writhes down on Tony's fingers, one hand around his waist and the other one reaching down between his legs to gently work his cock. ]
It was a good night, wasn't it?
[ He's still a little stuck on this idea that they're doing things like getting drunk at parties together, stepping out as a couple. Moving into a house. Soon they'll be married, and putting things on a registry of stuff they don't need and painting swatches of ten different white paints on the walls, doing all the things normal couples do.
He'd never bought into that family dynamic that almost everyone his age seemed to want a part of, that 1950s stuff, because he'd never wanted a wife like that and he's pretty sure Tony would only put on an apron for sex-related reasons. But, still, he carries this fantasy where he brings Tony pancakes in bed, and they host dinner parties, and do the Sunday crossword together. ]
We should do this more.
[ The hand that's at Tony's waist lifts to cup his cheek. Whatever Steve's thinking, it's soft. ]
[ Steve gives a mock pout, exacerbated by how drunk he is, flushed pink and looking up at Tony with nearly black eyes. ]
Still am mad you were late. Could've recited you my poetry.
[ But that melts into a groan as Tony presses a third finger into him, as his jaw falls slack and he gasps like he's surprised at how pleasurable it is to be opened on Tony's hand. It's strange, isn't it? How many times they've done this, but it feels so brand new. ]
Go to parties together, get drunk, leave with each other.
[ It seems so mundane when he puts it like that, but he kind of loves the idea of something to balance out all the times their relationship is so bizarrely absurd. Tony asking him to fly into Italy on a moment's notice, Steve asking Tony for remote access to an abandoned AIM facility and then to dinner after.
Their lives are ridiculous, and that's why they have a lake house and why Steve puts up a tree every year for Christmas and wants to knit Tony sweaters and make a little scrapbook of their lives. ]
Depends on how bad our hangovers are.
[ He swivels his hips down on Tony's fingers, his words almost breathless, but soon enough those little snippets of dreams for their utterly normal lives together turn into something more pressing: ]
I'm ready, Tony, please Tony...
Still am mad you were late. Could've recited you my poetry.
[ But that melts into a groan as Tony presses a third finger into him, as his jaw falls slack and he gasps like he's surprised at how pleasurable it is to be opened on Tony's hand. It's strange, isn't it? How many times they've done this, but it feels so brand new. ]
Go to parties together, get drunk, leave with each other.
[ It seems so mundane when he puts it like that, but he kind of loves the idea of something to balance out all the times their relationship is so bizarrely absurd. Tony asking him to fly into Italy on a moment's notice, Steve asking Tony for remote access to an abandoned AIM facility and then to dinner after.
Their lives are ridiculous, and that's why they have a lake house and why Steve puts up a tree every year for Christmas and wants to knit Tony sweaters and make a little scrapbook of their lives. ]
Depends on how bad our hangovers are.
[ He swivels his hips down on Tony's fingers, his words almost breathless, but soon enough those little snippets of dreams for their utterly normal lives together turn into something more pressing: ]
I'm ready, Tony, please Tony...
[ He'll regret sending it in the morning, but only a little bit - mostly for the 'byes', since he never knows how to bookend a thought. He's got the beginning, he's got the middle, and he doesn't know how it ends because he doesn't want it to: he wants that feeling to stretch on and on like driving at night on an empty freeway.
He follows Tony's lead, reposed on his side, leg propped up against Tony's chest. He could lean over as far as he wants; Steve is flexible, and something about the angle at which he's reclining and the thin sheen of sweat forming on his skin puts his muscles in sharp relief, each inhale carving out more of his abdomen than should be legal.
And when Tony sinks into him, he feels like he can't breathe, his brows knit tightly, his nerves alight. He doesn't feel any pain, but there's so much pressure from how Tony fills him up, he can hardly place a coherent thought in his head besides "Tony," and that's what he says, over and over again, losing a little breath each time. ]
Move.
[ Finally, another thought. He shifts his hips and feels shivers across his whole body. ]
Please move.
He follows Tony's lead, reposed on his side, leg propped up against Tony's chest. He could lean over as far as he wants; Steve is flexible, and something about the angle at which he's reclining and the thin sheen of sweat forming on his skin puts his muscles in sharp relief, each inhale carving out more of his abdomen than should be legal.
And when Tony sinks into him, he feels like he can't breathe, his brows knit tightly, his nerves alight. He doesn't feel any pain, but there's so much pressure from how Tony fills him up, he can hardly place a coherent thought in his head besides "Tony," and that's what he says, over and over again, losing a little breath each time. ]
Move.
[ Finally, another thought. He shifts his hips and feels shivers across his whole body. ]
Please move.
[ Steve's body is pulled taut like a string being tuned, and he always feels like he might snap and break, but knows that he's in good hands, that no matter how much tension there is, there's always a release coming eventually, and that Tony knows his body enough to guide him there every time, without fail.
But he also always takes him right to the point, hand around his cock and buried within him, the pressure so high, the pleasure so strong that it hits him with the kind of force he usually associates with battle. ]
You like when I'm--
[ Bossy, he wants to say, but the word doesn't make it out as Tony slams into him, pushing Steve into Tony's hand, causing a fault in his thoughts, an incoherent groan replacing it instead. The arm that isn't keeping him propped up reaches towards Tony, on his side, over his ribcage, grasping and pawing at his chest.
He manages to eke out the words: ]
Just like that.
[ Riding on the breath he exhales with, thought finishing before he can draw another, or else it too would be lost. His head is swimming more than it usually is, alcohol clouding his mind as much as the lust, but he knows what he wants; he's not afraid to chase it, pulling Tony towards him, his hips impatient, pleas just on the tip of his tongue. ]
But he also always takes him right to the point, hand around his cock and buried within him, the pressure so high, the pleasure so strong that it hits him with the kind of force he usually associates with battle. ]
You like when I'm--
[ Bossy, he wants to say, but the word doesn't make it out as Tony slams into him, pushing Steve into Tony's hand, causing a fault in his thoughts, an incoherent groan replacing it instead. The arm that isn't keeping him propped up reaches towards Tony, on his side, over his ribcage, grasping and pawing at his chest.
He manages to eke out the words: ]
Just like that.
[ Riding on the breath he exhales with, thought finishing before he can draw another, or else it too would be lost. His head is swimming more than it usually is, alcohol clouding his mind as much as the lust, but he knows what he wants; he's not afraid to chase it, pulling Tony towards him, his hips impatient, pleas just on the tip of his tongue. ]
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