Steve shrugs. "Never been one for parties anyway."
It's either the alcohol or the conversation that's helping. Steve's not sure which. Tony's relaxing more and he's losing some of the skittish look in his eyes. They're both deliberately not talking about it and Steve's not sure if that's the right thing. It might be?
Tony's calming down and Steve hopes that if he calms enough it'll make things easier tomorrow when they'll have to talk about it again. But not confronting those feelings means they're just going to sit and fester and make Tony feel worse eventually. Well, that's what Steve thinks.
He smiles a little. "No one thinks I went in perfect. You've seen the pictures."
Even now after looking at his serum-ed face for a few years Steve still sometimes expects to see the skinny guy. The longer he's chased after Bucky the more that little guy has come back in his head. That's who he is. That's who he should be but instead he's got the serum and he's here.
Tony's the one that grounds him in the present instead of the past. Now they're going to have to confront that past together. It's going to hurt a lot. Even know it hurts and they're both pretending it doesn't.
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It's either the alcohol or the conversation that's helping. Steve's not sure which. Tony's relaxing more and he's losing some of the skittish look in his eyes. They're both deliberately not talking about it and Steve's not sure if that's the right thing. It might be?
Tony's calming down and Steve hopes that if he calms enough it'll make things easier tomorrow when they'll have to talk about it again. But not confronting those feelings means they're just going to sit and fester and make Tony feel worse eventually. Well, that's what Steve thinks.
He smiles a little. "No one thinks I went in perfect. You've seen the pictures."
Even now after looking at his serum-ed face for a few years Steve still sometimes expects to see the skinny guy. The longer he's chased after Bucky the more that little guy has come back in his head. That's who he is. That's who he should be but instead he's got the serum and he's here.
Tony's the one that grounds him in the present instead of the past. Now they're going to have to confront that past together. It's going to hurt a lot. Even know it hurts and they're both pretending it doesn't.