Starting to get everything prepped will stop the wheels from churning so hard in his mind, and it does settle him a little more when Steve offers to make the first reach out. If Natasha can't get a hold of them they'll go to Hill next. If she can't, Tony will do it on his own. Or maybe they'll bypass him entirely and go through the ruins of what was the SHIELD building at the Triskelion. If not there, there's several other hubs and-
And, and, and. Maybe he's not so settled after all. Already jumping to the next thing, nodding numbly all the while to Steve's offer.
He tries to shake himself free but it's difficult, even on a good day. Today is assuredly not one of those. Though he does let out a slow, amused tinged breathy noise when Steve mentions ordering in. "I was thinking about that. Before you came home early." Before everything got ruined. Might still be ruined. He's not sure there's any salvaging this evening. But it certainly won't get better if he keeps stewing.
The problem is he can't help it. There's so many things they need to do. He needs to do. All while trying to honor his promise to not slip away and try to carry on by himself. Do this himself. "Felt like a night for ordering in. Wanted you all to myself. Little did I know..." Trying. Trying so hard to come back into his usual self, if only to put Steve a little more at ease.
He shakes his head and then finally relinquishes his hands from Steve and steps back. Already there's a void created the moment he does. But the last thing he wants to do now is appear needy. Even when he is even on a normal night. "Just tell me what you want. Good Italian? Bad pizza? Chinese? Thai? Standard Americana fare?" Talking just to fill space more than anything.
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And, and, and. Maybe he's not so settled after all. Already jumping to the next thing, nodding numbly all the while to Steve's offer.
He tries to shake himself free but it's difficult, even on a good day. Today is assuredly not one of those. Though he does let out a slow, amused tinged breathy noise when Steve mentions ordering in. "I was thinking about that. Before you came home early." Before everything got ruined. Might still be ruined. He's not sure there's any salvaging this evening. But it certainly won't get better if he keeps stewing.
The problem is he can't help it. There's so many things they need to do. He needs to do. All while trying to honor his promise to not slip away and try to carry on by himself. Do this himself. "Felt like a night for ordering in. Wanted you all to myself. Little did I know..." Trying. Trying so hard to come back into his usual self, if only to put Steve a little more at ease.
He shakes his head and then finally relinquishes his hands from Steve and steps back. Already there's a void created the moment he does. But the last thing he wants to do now is appear needy. Even when he is even on a normal night. "Just tell me what you want. Good Italian? Bad pizza? Chinese? Thai? Standard Americana fare?" Talking just to fill space more than anything.